Oct 23rd 1923. It was my birthday yesterday, it was a lovely day Vicki visited me and Anja and the girls came to cook me dinner and we had a lovely evening. But I missed you so much and I still do Vicki bought me some lovely flowers which are placed in front of your photo pink roses like in a wedding bouquet. I am trying to get on with my life and most of the time I’m succeeding but I still miss you and it doesn’t feel same without you every time I look at your photograph that we took in Iceland I remember how happy we were on that holiday and then how everything changed after that and how you got ill . I’m glad you’re no longer in pain that you are in the most beautiful place you can be in that you’re with the people that you’ve lost and loved and the people that I’ve lost and loved and I hope you’re waiting for me to be in trouble if you’re not . It is hard without you. Although you are quite quiet and enjoyed doing things that you liked it’s not the same without you I noticed that you’re not there I turn round to talk to you and you’re not there I hear you and try to answer but you’re not there . I never thought it would be this hard, maybe I hadn’t realised just how much I loved you and how much you meant to me and whether you believed me when I told you but I do,I did and I will always love you with all of my heart . We’ve been through many ups and downs but always got through them. 36 years is quite an achievement but longer would have been even better, as long as you were well. I never wanted you to suffer. My love be at peace and be the person God always wanted you to be, e cause you were, you just never believed it. You were the gentlest, most humble and the most amazing husband I could ever have had. You may not be with me but you are always in my heart and in my memories. I think of you and miss you every day. All my love always and eternally. Be at peace my Dadie. Yours alwa yes Annie X